Thursday, August 12, 2010

It's not just wrinkles.. it's official.. I'm what I used to consider Old

I am just back from the Doctors office, I went to get test results on blood work for being tested for hemochromatosis. When a doctors office calls and says you need to come in.. it's never a good thing.  Ang was sweet enough to drive me (we are a one car family and Darren was out today) and Ashley was kind enough to watch my kiddlets..
When I got in to see the Dr I received what I thought was great news, no hemochromatosis ...   And then there was a but.  I recently blogged about not recognizing myself in the mirror that somewhere along the way I got the wrinkles I thought I would never get.
I also used to (until 1:45 today)  think diseases like liver damage were strictly for "old" people who had been drinking heavily for years. Guess I'm old. I have elevated liver enzymes... Could be caused by recent herbs I took or drinking.  I am being re-tested in a few weeks to see where things are at after stopping herbs and drinking as much.
I know deep down the truth. I am not invincible. I am not taking care of my body like I should, I have not been properly appreciating the gift of my life.  And the truth is I have been drinking for years, I am not an alcoholic (although I hear if I was I wouldn't admit it anyhow...but I am pretty confident that I am not) but I enjoy a few bevy's socially. (Problem is I am VERY social!)
All these years I felt that I was somehow blessed and that I was somehow invincible to disease, to aging, to health related death. Instead being cautious of tragedy and living with a certain fear, not jumping off bridges, being weary of dangerous situations, taking cabs if I didn't think the person driving was actually sober.  I have played it safe in most situations. 
Where I have failed is my health.  I don't know why I have taken my health for granted for so many of my precious years here, my best guess is the invincible to disease feeling I have always had (until 3 hours ago). But it's time to change.  It's my wake up call.  This is it, this is my shot, it is my choice to live a long, happy, healthy life and I think those around me want the same thing.

Liver disease at 33?  Yah.. that's not ok.  Being on the obese side of the scale.. also not good.  And both those things I am responsible for.  No one put a gun to my head and said... drink this, eat that.. 

I'm awake. I'm listening. I get it. I was blessed to be born.  I was blessed to be born in Canada.  I was blessed to be born into a wonderful family. I was blessed when I met my husband. I was never so blessed as the day each of my children chose me to be their mom, I am blessed to have amazing friends.  I owe it all the people in my life to take care of myself, to be healthy, to live long and well so I can enjoy them and they can enjoy me.

Until next time.. I will eat better, drink less, and love more.



  1. I love this post Aly. I even teared up reading it. It is such an important reminder.
    My stepsister died three years ago at the age of 44 due to a heart attack. She was very unhealthy and as a result of this abuse on her body she left behind two amazing teenagers. It was such a senseless death and it is so hard to come to terms with. Honestly as cliche as it sounds realizing there's a problem really is the hardest and most important step.

    I love you tons and want you to be around long after we're in the old age home. xx

  2. Aly, you are awesome. This post was hilarious, heartfelt and all at once profound. You are blessed, and I am blessed to know you.

  3. oh Aly, what an incredibly insightful and meaningful blog. You go girl, any thing you need to do to steer yourself in the direction that you know is right for you, you will DO IT!

  4. And we are blessed to know you, so, no, no vodka tonight. Early to bed. Talk later!

  5. Aly, I ♥ U! I'm sorry to hear that :( As hard as it is, you can see it as a blessing in disguise to have something that can push you into truly caring about yourself and giving you the motivation it takes to do that, because it is NOT easy! Honestly, I have been taking my health for granted for a long time. It is only very, very recently that it has begun to really hit home with me how important it is, and how we have one shot. We should talk about it. It is so funny because before I came here I've been brainstorming about this topic to write this afternoon. I think we are floating around on the same wavelength. xoxo